Whew, the countdown is on. Only 9 more days until I get to escape on a girls weekend with my mom and sister. Mom is treating us to an extended weekend at a top notch spa resort. It couldn’t come at a better time! I’m sad and nervous about leaving Josh for 5 days (the longest we’ve been apart is overnight) but it’s such a great opportunity that I can’t pass it up.
On the other hand, while I’m gleefully counting down, my husband is counting down with dread for an entirely different reason. He’s preparing to once again be miserable at his job. His department is suffering like so many others during these tough budget times and he is being transferred back into a juvenile detention facility as a glorified baby-sitter the same day I leave for my trip. He’s already been there and done that. He did his time and got to move up and out but now they’re sucking him back in. It’s just such a miserable environment that I’m worried for him. Please don’t get me wrong – I know we’re blessed that he still has a job and that many would kill for that right now. I’m thankful for that every day. However, he’s going to be miserable and I just hope he’s able to leave it at work. The kids rule the place and know it. Staff assaults are on the rise as well as lawsuits. Yuck!
To top it all of, I can’t figure out if I’m preggo or not. We’ve been trying for about a year now. It’s so frustrating, especially since it happened immediately with Josh, our precious honeymoon present. We went into this so sure that it would be that way again but were given a reality check. In a strange way I’m thankful because I feel it has caused me to grow as a person, in my faith, and to be more sensitive and compassionate for those close to me that have been struggling with fertility. Having said that, c’mon already!! So here we are, day 44 of my once regular cycle with no aunt flo and 4 negative over the counter tests. I’m going to have to break down and beg for a blood test before my spa trip so I know for sure what activities I can partake in.
Speaking of which, I’m so excited. I’ve got several massages lined up, a cooking class, a nutrition class, a facial and here’s the best – hypnotism for weight loss! That would be awesome if it could magically make me like and crave veggies and other good for me foods. Oh yeah – that’s the one of the big things I’m nervous about – the healthy eating. No soda? No junk food? What’s a gal to do? I think all the biking, hiking, yoga and underwater treadmill classes will be fun, but no caffeine? Yikes! Who knows, I just might come back a new person. =)
Saturday, March 21, 2009
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
Pee Pee Woes
I totally forgot to share my funny story for the day...
Josh has been complaining that his "pee pee" hurts. It's been random and he's easily distracted. I'm certainly not a pee pee expert but I performed a visual inspection and everything seemed just fine. Over the past few weeks he's been complaining about it more frequently so last week I took him to the doctor to have his pee pee checked out. Everything checked out fine. His urine sample was clear and the doctors visual exam also gave no insight.
This afternoon when Josh was supposed to be napping I heard him whining in his room. Boy did I get a surprise when I peeked in to check on him. The little bugger was sitting on the edge of his bed, minus his diaper, pulling on his erect pee pee and telling me it was hurting him. Thank goodness my husband was home because I almost fell on the floor laughing. I'm so glad Jacob was there to give him the talk about how that's a normal thing and it not necessarily pain that he's feeling down there. LOL
Does it really start this soon?!? Josh just turned 3 a couple of days ago. I figured I had a couple more years to go before we had to have those kind of talks.
Josh has been complaining that his "pee pee" hurts. It's been random and he's easily distracted. I'm certainly not a pee pee expert but I performed a visual inspection and everything seemed just fine. Over the past few weeks he's been complaining about it more frequently so last week I took him to the doctor to have his pee pee checked out. Everything checked out fine. His urine sample was clear and the doctors visual exam also gave no insight.
This afternoon when Josh was supposed to be napping I heard him whining in his room. Boy did I get a surprise when I peeked in to check on him. The little bugger was sitting on the edge of his bed, minus his diaper, pulling on his erect pee pee and telling me it was hurting him. Thank goodness my husband was home because I almost fell on the floor laughing. I'm so glad Jacob was there to give him the talk about how that's a normal thing and it not necessarily pain that he's feeling down there. LOL
Does it really start this soon?!? Josh just turned 3 a couple of days ago. I figured I had a couple more years to go before we had to have those kind of talks.
Terrified
Why do I feel as if I'm in over my head? Why did I let my dear, sweet husband talk me into this? I guess I should back up for a minute and explain for those of you who don't know me. If you were to google "socially inept" I'm pretty sure you'd find a picture of me. I was not raised in a social household and I'm horrible at meeting new people and making small talk. Once I get to know people, that's old news and I can function like a normal person but I just don't have the social graces that come so naturally to most.
My husband, Jacob, is exactly the opposite. He's the type you can take to a function where he doesn't know a soul and he'll find something to talk about with anyone and everyone. He enjoys entertaining and throwing parties. Opposites attract and he's a good influence on me but I'm seriously stressing about the newest venture he's gotten us involved in.
Over the last few years Jacob has gotten us involved in church. I was never a church person. We really enjoyed the pastor that married us so I agreed to go with Jacob to see what his church was all about. Strangely enough, I came to enjoy it. Next, Jacob felt we needed to be more active in church and help give back. He felt a pull to work with the youth group but the church already had that covered. Instead he's been working in children's ministry, teaching the 5th & 6th graders. I, in the mean time, chose to work with the 2 and 3 year olds which is much more my style. After all, my son is in that group and I know how to interact with little ones. We have lots of fun and no social graces are required. For me it's still a huge shock that I'm a Sunday school teacher!!
Fast forward to tonight. The husband and wife that were leading the youth group had to step down to deal with some personal problems. Jacob was asked if he was willing to take it over and keep it going. He and I talked it over and agreed that it would be a good move for him. I wasn't thinking clearly and didn't think it involved me since I work evenings and wouldn't be there for the majority of their meetings. The next thing I know, Jacob and I are listed on the church website as the youth leaders and we're attending their meeting where the previous couple announce that they are stepping down and we're taking over. Yikes!!
I'm in a panic. The previous couple are well loved and they leave behind big shoes to fill. Jacob will do great but these kids are also looking to me to fill the role of the female role model. I'm terrified of having to make sure these kids spiritual needs are met without letting them down. The meeting tonight was awful! I just felt so bad that the couple these kids know and love are leaving them, and in my inept hands to boot. I know I need to get over it, and I probably will but here I am venting instead of sleeping because it's a little overwhelming.
Now all that's left is figuring out the scheduling. I could have Jacob set both the current nights for nights that I'm at work but as terrified as I am, I feel like I should be there for the youth group. They are used to having a female half to bring their concerns to and if this is going to be a big part of Jacob's life, I feel as though I should be there. So do we give up our one night that we get to spend together as a family with no commitments or do we leave our adult bible study so that we can do family night and youth group night? I guess I just have to pray and it will all work out. =)
Whew, I feel much better now that I've vented it all out. I know it will all work out but it gets overwhelming. Thanks for listening.
My husband, Jacob, is exactly the opposite. He's the type you can take to a function where he doesn't know a soul and he'll find something to talk about with anyone and everyone. He enjoys entertaining and throwing parties. Opposites attract and he's a good influence on me but I'm seriously stressing about the newest venture he's gotten us involved in.
Over the last few years Jacob has gotten us involved in church. I was never a church person. We really enjoyed the pastor that married us so I agreed to go with Jacob to see what his church was all about. Strangely enough, I came to enjoy it. Next, Jacob felt we needed to be more active in church and help give back. He felt a pull to work with the youth group but the church already had that covered. Instead he's been working in children's ministry, teaching the 5th & 6th graders. I, in the mean time, chose to work with the 2 and 3 year olds which is much more my style. After all, my son is in that group and I know how to interact with little ones. We have lots of fun and no social graces are required. For me it's still a huge shock that I'm a Sunday school teacher!!
Fast forward to tonight. The husband and wife that were leading the youth group had to step down to deal with some personal problems. Jacob was asked if he was willing to take it over and keep it going. He and I talked it over and agreed that it would be a good move for him. I wasn't thinking clearly and didn't think it involved me since I work evenings and wouldn't be there for the majority of their meetings. The next thing I know, Jacob and I are listed on the church website as the youth leaders and we're attending their meeting where the previous couple announce that they are stepping down and we're taking over. Yikes!!
I'm in a panic. The previous couple are well loved and they leave behind big shoes to fill. Jacob will do great but these kids are also looking to me to fill the role of the female role model. I'm terrified of having to make sure these kids spiritual needs are met without letting them down. The meeting tonight was awful! I just felt so bad that the couple these kids know and love are leaving them, and in my inept hands to boot. I know I need to get over it, and I probably will but here I am venting instead of sleeping because it's a little overwhelming.
Now all that's left is figuring out the scheduling. I could have Jacob set both the current nights for nights that I'm at work but as terrified as I am, I feel like I should be there for the youth group. They are used to having a female half to bring their concerns to and if this is going to be a big part of Jacob's life, I feel as though I should be there. So do we give up our one night that we get to spend together as a family with no commitments or do we leave our adult bible study so that we can do family night and youth group night? I guess I just have to pray and it will all work out. =)
Whew, I feel much better now that I've vented it all out. I know it will all work out but it gets overwhelming. Thanks for listening.
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