Counting down

Whew, the countdown is on. Only 9 more days until I get to escape on a girls weekend with my mom and sister. Mom is treating us to an extended weekend at a top notch spa resort. It couldn’t come at a better time! I’m sad and nervous about leaving Josh for 5 days (the longest we’ve been apart is overnight) but it’s such a great opportunity that I can’t pass it up.

On the other hand, while I’m gleefully counting down, my husband is counting down with dread for an entirely different reason. He’s preparing to once again be miserable at his job. His department is suffering like so many others during these tough budget times and he is being transferred back into a juvenile detention facility as a glorified baby-sitter the same day I leave for my trip. He’s already been there and done that. He did his time and got to move up and out but now they’re sucking him back in. It’s just such a miserable environment that I’m worried for him. Please don’t get me wrong – I know we’re blessed that he still has a job and that many would kill for that right now. I’m thankful for that every day. However, he’s going to be miserable and I just hope he’s able to leave it at work. The kids rule the place and know it. Staff assaults are on the rise as well as lawsuits. Yuck!

To top it all of, I can’t figure out if I’m preggo or not. We’ve been trying for about a year now. It’s so frustrating, especially since it happened immediately with Josh, our precious honeymoon present. We went into this so sure that it would be that way again but were given a reality check. In a strange way I’m thankful because I feel it has caused me to grow as a person, in my faith, and to be more sensitive and compassionate for those close to me that have been struggling with fertility. Having said that, c’mon already!! So here we are, day 44 of my once regular cycle with no aunt flo and 4 negative over the counter tests. I’m going to have to break down and beg for a blood test before my spa trip so I know for sure what activities I can partake in.

Speaking of which, I’m so excited. I’ve got several massages lined up, a cooking class, a nutrition class, a facial and here’s the best – hypnotism for weight loss! That would be awesome if it could magically make me like and crave veggies and other good for me foods. Oh yeah – that’s the one of the big things I’m nervous about – the healthy eating. No soda? No junk food? What’s a gal to do? I think all the biking, hiking, yoga and underwater treadmill classes will be fun, but no caffeine? Yikes! Who knows, I just might come back a new person. =)